Thursday, October 20, 2016

Don't Run With Scissors

Have you ever been in a spot where you were sure as gold that you were supposed to take that leap of faith, so you jumped.

Not so recently, I jumped. I fell. I fell flat!

I don't think it was because I made the wrong choice. I just wasn't prepared enough in the transition in a variety of areas, mostly in my heart. I thought I was, but I cried everyday I came home for the first month.

I could easily make this post all about me, but it is not going to be. I am going to a conference with a theme: Stronger Together, so this is about seven educators who rallied around me at a point where I wanted to run with scissors and let me cry, vent and spoke life back into me and I put the scissors down.

This is a thank you.
Thank you Mark French and Bret Domstrand. Thank you for being excellent leaders in my life and showing me for several years now what strength looks like, yet also showing your willingness to be vunerable so that you can speak to my heart. I heard you. Some people take this teaching thing one year at a time. You reminded me to take it one day at a time and to celebrate the small successes. You reminded me that students matter. Epic feelings of failure are real, but not the truth. You shared from your own experience and your own moments of questioning and my perspective changed. Thank you Lee Graves for several discussions and taking my pulse and offering hope.

I wanted to thank my sisterhood of friends who listened to me and set my feet higher on a ground and gave me a safe place to fall apart at the same time. Thank you Fran, Krisanne, Jenny and Sandy. Thank you for being pillars of educators in my life and for speaking not just encouragement into my life, but truth as well.
Maybe you feel like me right now, you are wondering if you maybe jumped wrong and instead of flying, broke your ankle. Maybe you did, it will all be okay! Maybe you didn't and it will all be okay. It all gets better. Maybe you have been in this business for a long time like me and have a bit of a pride issue. Let me encourage you to take a deep breath, to seek out authentic council and to open your heart to their wisdom. Be vulnerable. Have hope.  The tide comes and the tide goes. Roll with the tide and give yourself grace.

We are stronger together. I love you.